Enigma

“Enigma is a a person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling, or difficult to understand.”

The first thing that came to mind when I came across Enigma, is an episode from How I Met Your Mother. Marshall Eriksen is reading from the book Enigmas of the Mystical. (I tagged a clip from that episode to watch) where he reads stories that could be an enigma or a hoax and tries to get Lily to believe in them. I can hear him saying “Eniiiiggggmaaaa” to Lily. (haha.) For those of you that don’t me, How I Met Your Mother is one of my all time favorite shows that I can watch over and over again. And this episode, I believe, is when Marshall and Lily were living out on Long Island before their first child is born. I definitely laughed out loud when I thought of this scene.

For those who do not know this word an enigma is, it’s a person or thing that is mysterious, puzzling, or difficult to understand. I came across this word when I was reading the book Big Magic: Creative Living Beyond Fear by Elizabeth Gilbert (The author who wrote Eat, Pray, Love). I’ve only read about 100 pages of this book, but boy does it make you think a lot about fear in your own life as she explains navigating fear herself. She mentions that “The unknown is an enigma.” This was so powerful for me to read and I fully believe that the unknown is an enigma, it’s mysterious, something that I can’t quite wrap my head around because I can’t explain it.

I get so puzzled by the unknown because the universe is always throwing things at us, putting us on paths that we never thought we would be on, and shows us things that we might not expect. The unknown for most can be scary and can carry a lot of fear. Because honestly, who thought the last 2 years would’ve happened? I know I didn’t think that was where our world was headed. (Although I’m sure there were a select few, like the Simpsons, that knew something was brewing). I think what makes the unknown an enigma, is the power that it has over us. The power of completely changing your life at any moment and not knowing whats in store.

I may not be where I thought I would end up at this moment in my life. But I believe that the universe is always working in my favor, even if I can’t see it.

Even though I lead this positive, grateful, joyous lifestyle, (Although most days I am pretty positive) I have days where it’s hard for me to see the good in my life, and how fortunate I truly am. Sometimes it is hard for me to accept things that happen in my life. Like I can’t see where my life is headed, or what the universe has in store for me. Because when things go terribly wrong in your life, how can you see that you’re ultimately being pushed into something great? Why is it so hard for us to think of all of the positive outcomes that could happen in our lives? Why is it so easy for us to think (and almost believe) all of the negative outcomes that could happen? For me, I have lived in fear my whole life, fear of fully being myself. That’s not to say that fear shouldn’t exist in your life, because fear can be helpful in very stressful situations. It is healthy to have some fear for certain situations, but not to have fear running your whole life.

Trying to think on the positive side of things may not always be easy, especially when you have people saying how annoying it is, or having people in your life that are constantly negative. But on days where I feel good and know that I am safe, I feel grateful and choose to see the good outcomes that could happen. Because what if things turn out better than you could’ve ever imagined? So why not make the unknown beautiful, because in the unknown is where you will grow and flourish. It’s time to make this enigma beautiful because I believe everything happens for a reason. Everything we’re exposed to, everyone we meet, we are supposed to experience. Believe in the impossible and expect the unexpected. Because this crazy beautiful enigma isn’t going away, so we might as well embrace wherever the world is taking us in our lives.

Just like Fun sings “If you’re lost and alone, or you’re sinking like a stone, Carry On.” Carry on when things take a different turn in your life. Take a breath, relax, let go, surrender and go forth into that unknown, that beautiful enigma. The one question I have for you is; What is an enigma for you?

Much Love,
CLD

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