“You keep living in that feeling of gratitude because you choose it.“
Yesterday I was driving back up north from visiting a friend. At the beginning of the drive I was stuck in rush hour traffic, and I could have been angry, and mad at my decision to drive back during stop and go traffic on the highway. But I had just gone to my favorite grocery store and was able to stock up on tons of coconut water which made me so incredibly happy, since I can’t get it where I am currently staying. For most of the drive back, I felt immense gratitude for life, for how beautiful life truly is, I felt incredibly happy to be here experiencing this life. I felt immense gratitude towards the amazing views of the Adirondaks on the way back. And every song that came on, I was singing at the top of my lungs. I teared up at some points on the way back because I was just really grateful for where I am, grateful for the signs that I am exactly where I am meant to be on this Earth, right here in this very moment.
I don’t always have days like these, not every day is sunshine and rainbows. But when I do, I can’t help but really be in the moment, living in that bliss, soaking in all of the gratitude of being alive. I’ve come to notice that these days seem to last more and more after that initial day of feeling grateful. Gratitude really turns my mind and life into a positive one. I felt that I couldn’t believe that I am seeing mountains on this drive, I was so excited for the song Fly Away by Tones and I, and the song Lease on Life by Andy Grammar, I couldn’t believe that I was watching the sunset, and I couldn’t believe how fast my drive home was. I didn’t want that feeling to end, not one bit. I desired for it to keep illuminating from me. And I feel like I’ve heard this, and have known this all along, but it wasn’t until me desiring for the feeling to stay, was when I really understood it. You keep living in that feeling of gratitude because you choose it.
You have a choice on how you get to feel today, the next day, and everyday. Once you choose to live in that feeling, and you make the decision to keep living in that feeling, the whole world opens up for you. But it is a choice. Whatever your circumstances are right now, you have a choice as to how you feel and how to react to things happening in your life. Once you realize that things are happening for you, that life is happening for you, is when you can surrender. To others, I may not have a lot of things, and I may seem like I may not have a path in life, but I know within my heart that I truly do have a lot of things (not material things) and have a purpose here on earth. It doesn’t matter what anyone else sees or tells you, about you, because they aren’t you. What matters is how you feel and what you tell yourself.
How are you choosing to feel today?