Healing Journey (Part Dos)

“…we are all aloud to live our own lives with our own views and opinions.

My Brother just got married this past weekend. and it was such a blast! I had so much fun connecting with family members that I haven’t seen in years. (Especially on my Dad’s side of the family). For those of you who don’t know, (Or haven’t read my blog post) my Dad passed away 28 years ago. I was 3 years old and my brother was 1 when he passed. For the past couple of years I have been working on healing my inner child and healing traumas that I have held onto for years. Part of that healing has been healing my relationship with my Dad. I was three years old when he never came back home. I personally can’t remember stories of him, but I know my three year old self had a wonderful relationship with him. And to have him not come back and to not understand why he wasn’t coming back, I’m sure was hard to understand at such a young age.

Growing up without a father has impacted my life in so many ways. Last year I took a healing journey with Brett J. Peters (I’ll tag his instagram) and it made me change the way I think of my relationship with my father. It truly was the best decision to take sessions with him. He had phrased his passing as “What if this is the best way he could love you? What if his passing was his way of becoming closer to you more than ever?” And it changed my perspective on my fathers passing. I truly believe he is here with me every day (even as I write this post). Having those sessions with him really helped me to heal that relationship with him. I am forever grateful for being alive everyday experiencing everything I get to experience. I wouldn’t be here without my father so I am grateful to hear so many wonderful stories of him growing up from his cousins, brother and sister, and his Dad (my grandpa). To be able to connect with my Dad’s side of the family was really great. I really felt I was in the right place at the right time. My Dad’s brother is really great, and must have some of the same qualities as my Dad. I will forever cherish the times that I’ve been able to hang out with them and get to know them even more.

Yes there are some family members and friends that I may not connect with anymore, and that is okay. It doesn’t mean that they are terrible people, in fact they are really great people some of the most amazing people I know! We just view things in life in a totally different capacity. And it is okay, we are all aloud to live our own lives with our own views and opinions. I love my family and friends and have been grateful for them while going through my life and this healing journey. But I eventually know people will stop hanging out with me because of my views and my opinions. And this is okay, because we are aloud to live our life the way we desire.

My brothers Wedding was really awesome and amazing. I am so grateful for them having a huge wedding celebration of him and my new sister-in-law (The Other Katie Dietsche). I didn’t drink (because I haven’t drank for 2 years) and it was one of my favorite times in my life. I’ll share some of my favorite photos from the week. I am truly proud of my brother and the man he’s become. He definitely has matured so much and it makes me a proud sister to have watched him grow up and become who he is today. I’m proud of you little bro, keep being you, because the world needs more of you.

Much Love,
CLD

Healing Journey

“If you feel your life is at a stand-still, just know that it is preparing you for something great, greater than you could’ve ever imagined.”

Healing yourself is a whole life long journey. It’s a journey with many ups and downs. A journey of trial and errors to find what works best for you. A journey of not just healing health, but healing the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual self. Healing all aspects of the soul and core being. If I didn’t start this healing journey with the Medical Medium Lifestyle, I have no idea where I would be, but I am glad I started this journey.

Growing up, I never truly felt like myself. I never felt that I fit in with my friends, family or even society. I never felt I fit in with the career I ended up choosing (only worked at for a couple of years), or the schooling I went through. I just felt out of place from everyone and everything. But I never told anyone that I felt this way. I would always get certain vibes and the vibes I would verbalize when something felt off was that “I don’t think so and so likes me.” I never understood why I was feeling this way. I never understood why I never felt like myself. The more I would drink or party or do what society shows us to do (or is considered normal), I felt even more disconnected from my true self. Most social events I went to, I never really felt like I belonged (only a few of them I felt where I could be my best self). But I still kept going to them, thinking that this event will be the event where I finally feel that I fit in. But it never really happened. I felt I was forcing myself to go to things that in my core, knew that it wasn’t for me. But I push past that resistance to try to prove to myself that I do fit in. But like I said, it never really happened. And I felt even more disconnected when I completely changed my life, for the better.

It’s only been a little less than two years on this journey, but I can’t believe how far I have come. I can’t believe how much I have learned about myself and how much I have unlearned everything I thought was what life was about. It’s hard for me to talk about a lot of things with people I know because they won’t understand me or even listen to what I have to say. I choose to say nothing to most of them and keep myself small. Eventually I know, I will slowly disconnect with friends and family, that don’t resonate with me anymore. I don’t feel like I belong with anyone from my old life, my past self. I feel I don’t belong anywhere at the moment. I’m still learning about myself and how I feel in certain situations. I’m still learning what choices for me are a hard yes or a hard pass. If I feel the slightest bit of resistance, I choose not to do it.

Right now my life feels like it’s at a stand-still, feels stagnant. Like I’m stuck somewhere and don’t feel like I’m moving. Sometimes people like to point out that I’m not doing anything with my life, or it seems that I don’t have any goals or aspirations. Which I mostly think is because I haven’t found something that fuels my passion, my purpose. I know that I have a purpose here on earth, that there is a reason I am here. I choose not to listen to people who think I’m going no where in my life. But I am definitely headed to the best version of myself. Even though I feel at a stand-still, I think I need to embrace this period more, because maybe it’s just what I need in this chapter of my life.

My time is coming and I know I will find my tribe. I know I will find more like minded people like me, as long as I keep doing things that bring me joy. My dream life is here and now and I am working towards it every day. I know future me, a year from now, will be so proud of all that I have gone through and all that I am doing currently in this very moment. I know my past self is incredibly proud of how far I have come. My time is more valuable now than ever before, and I get to choose how I spend it. You too, should be incredibly proud of yourself for how far you’ve come. You’ve made it through your toughest days and are still here, make sure you celebrate that and know that you are never alone in this world. If you feel your life is at a stand-still, just know that it is preparing you for something great, greater than you could’ve ever imagined. Embrace where you are right now, choose to surrender and trust that the universe is always working in your favor.

Much Love,
CLD

Road Reflections

“You keep living in that feeling of gratitude because you choose it.

Yesterday I was driving back up north from visiting a friend. At the beginning of the drive I was stuck in rush hour traffic, and I could have been angry, and mad at my decision to drive back during stop and go traffic on the highway. But I had just gone to my favorite grocery store and was able to stock up on tons of coconut water which made me so incredibly happy, since I can’t get it where I am currently staying. For most of the drive back, I felt immense gratitude for life, for how beautiful life truly is, I felt incredibly happy to be here experiencing this life. I felt immense gratitude towards the amazing views of the Adirondaks on the way back. And every song that came on, I was singing at the top of my lungs. I teared up at some points on the way back because I was just really grateful for where I am, grateful for the signs that I am exactly where I am meant to be on this Earth, right here in this very moment.

I don’t always have days like these, not every day is sunshine and rainbows. But when I do, I can’t help but really be in the moment, living in that bliss, soaking in all of the gratitude of being alive. I’ve come to notice that these days seem to last more and more after that initial day of feeling grateful. Gratitude really turns my mind and life into a positive one. I felt that I couldn’t believe that I am seeing mountains on this drive, I was so excited for the song Fly Away by Tones and I, and the song Lease on Life by Andy Grammar, I couldn’t believe that I was watching the sunset, and I couldn’t believe how fast my drive home was. I didn’t want that feeling to end, not one bit. I desired for it to keep illuminating from me. And I feel like I’ve heard this, and have known this all along, but it wasn’t until me desiring for the feeling to stay, was when I really understood it. You keep living in that feeling of gratitude because you choose it.

You have a choice on how you get to feel today, the next day, and everyday. Once you choose to live in that feeling, and you make the decision to keep living in that feeling, the whole world opens up for you. But it is a choice. Whatever your circumstances are right now, you have a choice as to how you feel and how to react to things happening in your life. Once you realize that things are happening for you, that life is happening for you, is when you can surrender. To others, I may not have a lot of things, and I may seem like I may not have a path in life, but I know within my heart that I truly do have a lot of things (not material things) and have a purpose here on earth. It doesn’t matter what anyone else sees or tells you, about you, because they aren’t you. What matters is how you feel and what you tell yourself.

How are you choosing to feel today?

Much Love,
CLD

It’s Been a While…

“…but I believe we chose to be here on Earth at this very moment to learn how to live fully, to enjoy the little things in life, and really enjoy every waking moment that we are alive.”

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been taking a little break to work on myself and figure out what’s best for me. Basically I’ve been a little selfish, haha. Aren’t we all aloud to be a little selfish every once in a while? While I’m being selfish, I’m incredibly grateful for the opportunity to take this break, really spend time with family and friends, to be able to help anyone who needs a helping hand and to just really enjoy being me, being happy.

I feel it’s the first time in a really long time that I feel that I am genuinely happy, living life each day with the intention of being present for every moment that I am alive. I mean who knows when I’ll have the opportunity to do this again? So I am taking advantage of living my life to the fullest while it’s summer time in the Northeast. At the moment I don’t have a “job” or “career” that everyone keeps asking me about. They keep asking me what’s next, what are you planning on doing, why aren’t you working, what are your “career” plans or haven’t you found a “job” yet? And with these questions that I’m asked, I do start to get in my head, doubting that the path I am choosing is even the right one.

I don’t believe in doing the whole “9-5” thing anymore. I don’t believe going to a job that is unfulfilling, working 8-10 hours a day, just to make a little bit of money, to hopefully pay the bills, I don’t believe this is really the way to go on living. I believe that there is more to life than doing a “job”. I feel we’ve been made to believe that we have to work in order to live. I don’t believe this is true. I was overworked, and underpaid especially with all of the pathogens I was exposed to/working with at work (E. coli, Salmonella, TB, Flu A/B just to name a few) and never felt appreciated for how much time, effort and overtime I put towards that “job”. At the “corporate job” I worked at, I felt I had lost myself, my soul. I had lost myself so much, my light was no longer shining brightly. I had lost myself so much, I was disconnected from who I truly am, and I didn’t have a clue as to who I was anymore.

For years, I never knew who I truly was or what I even wanted or desired in my life. Changing my whole lifestyle really helped me to see that this “job”, that I thought I would do the rest of my life, really wasn’t for me anymore. I knew I had to leave and get out of a place that felt so toxic to me. (Which I am extremely grateful that I did, because life started really happening for me and amazing opportunities came my way). But coming into the present day (Now that the universe had finally kicked me out of that “job”), without making some kind of income (I believe everything is energy, money included, and it comes and goes depending on your vibration, but that’s a topic for another post) it’s easy to get in a state of fear that I should be doing a job, even if it doesn’t resonate with me, just to be making money. Yes money can definitely help, but I believe we chose to be here on Earth at this very moment to learn how to live fully, to enjoy the little things in life, and really enjoy every waking moment that we are alive.

While I may not have found something that lights me up, that I truly love to do yet, I know without a doubt that these moments that I’ve had this summer to hang out with family and friends have meant so much to me. The moments where I am forced to deal with old feelings and situations have helped me to become the person I desire to become. And If I were working that “job” I wouldn’t be able to “request time off” because I wouldn’t have worked enough hours to get this much time off. So very grateful for the universe and all its wonder.

Show me universe how life gets better, how does life get any better than this?

Much Love,
CLD

Spreading Kindness

One of my favorite messages I did was something along the lines of “Stop what you are doing right now and blast Can’t Stop the Feeling by Justin Timberlake and dance around! Life’s too short to not enjoy every moment that you’re alive. Do something today that brings you joy, because you deserve it!”.

While I was in Boston, I had to figure out a way to make some extra cash to use as my “fun money”. The jobs I was applying to didn’t want someone for 3 months, my housing contract was only 3 months. So I decided to do DoorDash, because it was super easy to get started, I could make my own hours, and I could listen to my music while driving around.

I wanted to make my time here in Boston meaningful in some way. One day, I had an idea of writing kindness messages and leaving them in everyones orders. I believe the world needs more kindness and it doesn’t hurt to be kind to everyone you meet. So I would use my water color paints to create a colorful background, cut the paper into fourths and then write something kind on each piece. One of my favorite messages I did was something along the lines of “Stop what you are doing right now and blast Can’t Stop the Feeling by Justin Timberlake and dance around! Life’s too short to not to enjoy every moment that you’re alive. Do something today that brings you joy, because you deserve it!”. I liked it because Can’t Stop the Feeling is one of my favorite songs to dance too.

I started not only leaving them in the orders I was delivering, but in places that I would visit in Boston, The Museum of Fine Arts, the downtown public library, in restrooms, in grocery stores, on the T, I would hand them to people, I left them everywhere! I desired to make someones day infinitely better. Everyone deserves kindness, the whole world deserves kindness. Then I realized I wanted to incorporate more people to help me with messages of kindness. At the time I was doing a group mono-cleanse (It’s one of the Medical Medium’s Cleanses that I did to help with some digestive issues) and I ended up asking the people in the cleanse to give me messages of kindness for me to write. I’m glad they were more than welcoming to give me some messages to write, because they also made someone’s day whether they know it or not.

Writing these messages of kindness brought me such joy. It was something that felt meaningful to me, even if I never received any feedback. But I did receive a few messages of gratitude. This did make me feel like I made their day, even if it was those few who sent me messages, thank you for those messages! Eventually one day I had another idea to write this blog on the bottom of the messages to advertise it. So if you’re one of the people that came here because of my notes, thank you for visiting! Regardless of why you’re here reading my blog, thank you for visiting and I hope you are having the most wonderful day ever.

I hope today, you do something that brings you absolute joy. I hope today, that you live your life to the fullest. I hope today, you tell your loved ones just how much you love them. I hope today, you find peace within yourself. I hope today, that you are kind to others. Most of all, I hope today, that you are kind to yourself. Keep shining your light to others, keep being that beacon of hope for others. We need you here more than you know.

Much Love,
CLD

Thoughts

“So, I fully decided to step into the unknown, away from the comfortable and into the uncomfortable.”

As I look back on a couple of my previous posts, I realize I’ve been talking an awful lot about the unknown, and fear. Maybe it’s because with these past two years, theres been a lot of fear of the unknown going on. But maybe it’s because of me losing a contract last minute that I came here to Boston for to work.

Two months ago, I came to Boston for a contract through my company that I was going to be working for, for three months. Turns out, the place pulls my contract last minute. I was taken aback. I was tied into a 3 month housing contract in Boston, just lost a job and I had no idea what I was going to do at that moment. I ended up using that weekend as a pity party for myself because I truly had no idea where I was going next.

After leaving my job at Rochester, I had already knew that the job I was doing, I didn’t really want to do anymore. I no longer resonated with what that job did or stood for. But the money was really good and I was now having the opportunity to travel, so I decided why not do this for a couple of years and figure out along the way what I really desire to do in my life. But as it turns out, the universe had other plans. When I was completing all of the paperwork and all of the tests I had to do for the job, I really felt a lot of resistance this time, and I felt I really did not want to do this job.

I spent a good chunk of time completing all of the paperwork and tests for this job. If the contract wasn’t pulled, I would’ve worked hard, because that is who I am. And I also had a lot of experience on an instrument that they were planning on getting, and I planned on staying there longer than three months to help them out, and because I was living in Boston, I wanted to explore the city, and because I wanted to stay in this area to be close to New York for my brothers wedding… haha I really thought I had it all planned out, until the universe came in to shake things up.

Now, during that weekend I made the decision to stay in Boston for three months, because I was already paying for a place to live in and I mean I was in Boston, close to family, close to the ocean, and honestly , why not. Although at the moment I didn’t have a job, but my recruiter had faith that I could get another one close in the area. She put me into jobs around the area (even in Cape Cod, and in Southern New Hampshire) and I waited around for a week for something to come up. I also applied to places like Whole Foods (turned me down), Wegmans (turned me down) and a few others who turned me down as well. Until eventually I was like, well I could do DoorDash, cause why not, no one else seems to want to hire someone for a temporary position. So I started to do DoorDash, and I was so very scared for my first delivery, until I realized how incredibly easy this job was. I didn’t have to talk to anyone, I could make my own hours, I could blast my music while driving around, and I could explore the area more and see what’s around where I lived. One of my family members put my resume in to a couple of places, which one did reach back out to me for a Phlebotomy position, but I hated phlebotomy and stabbing people with needles. I would only be making 24$ an hour, where as I was making that doing DoorDash here. So I turned that job down because I knew I would hate it. All of the jobs my recruiter put me into turned me down as well. Clearly the universe was trying to tell me something here.

Now by this point after about of month of being here with no new job of the career I was in, I was starting to realize that I am much happier doing DoorDash than I ever was doing a 9-5, working weekends and holidays job. So much happier doing a job that I wasn’t making much money for (Although this isn’t the job I desire to do the rest of my life). My recruiter stopped getting notifications of new jobs hiring for travelers in the area, and I was starting to realize that really I didn’t want to do this job anymore. But I was scared. Because once I say good-bye to this comfortable paying job (even though I was extremely overworked and under paid at my first job for the last two years I was working there) I knew there was no looking back. But I also realized that this job can also be pulled right from under me, and that having one source of income that can be taken away at any moment is not something I want anything to do with. I also felt in my soul that this path isn’t for me anymore, this job isn’t for me.

So I took the leap, and threw out my work clothes. It took me a little bit to muster up the courage but I did it. And as soon as I did, the first travel assignment that I did, reached out and asked if I would be willing to do another travel assignment, and boy was this an even harder task to do. To write an email to let them know that I was no longer a Med Tech, and that once I say no, I am walking away from a good paying, ‘comfortable’ job. And that scared me. But you know what scared me even more? Being stuck in the same place I am, a year from now. Working at a job that I no longer resonate with, that I am miserable at, and that I see no future for myself. Now that I’ve spent the last six years of my life doing a job that I thought I was going to do for the rest of my life, only to find out I was miserable and I no longer wanted any part of it.

So I fully decided to step into the unknown, away from the comfortable and into the uncomfortable (even though I am scared). Was it easy to turn that job down and throw out my clothes? Absolutely not. A job that I spent a good portion of my life in, a job that I was grateful to have, a job that I used as an identity; it was not easy to make this decision to change my life’s path. As I stood here looking at the Boston Skyline and out into the ocean, I realized that change is always occurring, things never stay the same. I realized I would not be the person I am today without any of my experiences in my life. Just like you would not be the person you are today without any of your experiences in your life. Things are always changing around us. Maybe my hope for you reading this, is that you may have similar experiences and can give some advice. Or maybe my hope is that it inspires you to go out and do something in your life that scares you. Or maybe it’s both?

What I do know is that change is on the horizon. I am not the same person I was a year ago. I am more confident in myself than I ever have been before. Here’s to the next chapter in my life, the scariest yet exciting chapter yet.

Much Love,
CLD

The T

“…if you go all in on every one of your decisions, and you think “What if this turns out better than I could’ve ever imagined”, you might just find that your mind set changes, and that the universe has your back and will help you along the way.”

Finally, finally, finally I took the T into downtown Boston. I have to say this is much more worth it than I realized. From now on I plan to take it to downtown instead of driving, much less stress for me. As long as I have extra food with me for snacks, and places that I know I can go to the bathroom I am all set. I prep for whenever I go out and will be away for a long time and if there isn’t any places that I can eat.

I should’ve done this as soon as I got here, but hey, better late than never. Of course things seems scary until you do them. Don’t let fear control you and scare you out of doing something. Because who knows it might be good for you and might be just what you need. You’ll never know how powerful you are until you try. If something scares you, it might be a good thing for you to try, because it gets you outside of your comfort zone. No one ever grew in comfort zones. You may never grow and never learn your potential to be something great if you stay in your comfort zone.

So I hope you go out there this week and do something that scares you. Do something that you’ve put off because “you didn’t have time” or you were too scared. These are just excuses, you can change your life, it just starts with your decision to try. “If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.” Stop telling yourself that you can’t, because you can! You can do anything you put your mind to if you believe, believe in yourself and you’re halfway there. Go out there and accomplish those crazy dreams of yours, because I believe in you!

I may have been scared to ride the subway (because I haven’t ridden it in a years), and yes that sounds ridiculous, but you know what, it’s okay. It’s okay to be scared of the decisions you’re making in life because you aren’t sure of what will happen. I realized I was scared because it was the unknown. The not knowing if what I am doing is the right decision. But if you go all in on every one of your decisions, and you think “What if this turns out better than I could’ve ever imagined”, you might just find that your mind set changes, and that the universe has your back and will help you along the way. Expect the unexpected.

Much Love,
CLD

Exploring Boston

“If you stop a look around, you see that art is everywhere around you.”

Waterworks Museum

While I have more time on my hands than I thought I would in Boston, I decided for one full day a week, I get to do something fun for myself. Which is to explore Boston and the surrounding areas! I’ve explored Boston when I was in college, but seeing this city as the person I am now, is so much different, almost better. So far I’ve hit up the Museum of Fine Arts, the Waterworks Museum, and the Downtown Library in Copley Square. (And tons of parks and walking trails of course)

Museum of Fine Arts

The Waterworks Museum is free to explore and get a guided tour. I was really taken aback to hear that Boston was still using these steam engines to bring water to the city into the late ’70s, specifically 1978. Now that is impressive that some of the steam engines were still running until then. I was impressed with the architecture of the brick building and of these impressive steam engines. It is pretty remarkable hearing of the challenges the builders had when making these engines to pump water into the city and how they created solutions to them. The engines that were used are two Holly-Gaskill pumping engines that could pump eight million gallons each per day, the Leavitt pumping engine, the Allis engine, and Worthington-Snow pumping engine. In the museum they also had tools they used to put these engines together, and boy were they heavier than I expected and much bigger than I am used to seeing. Even some of the parts of the machines were extremely heavy. This was a cool museum to check out if you’re ever in the area. (Waterworks Museum)

One of the displays of Art of Europe

The Museum of Fine Art was the next one I happened to check out. I didn’t get a tour here, but I did walk around and look at everything on my own time. The free day for this museum is on Wednesday night after 4pm (But a suggested donation is recommended). Art is a visual object or experience consciously created through an expression of skill or imagination. (Britannica) Art can be anything that you see as creative. The museums architecture is a work of art on its own. Architecture to me, is a kind of art that I appreciate, and it is remarkable that someone had a view of what this building was going to look like before it was built. The beautiful stone work and paintings in the ceiling when you first walk in, and a big beautiful stair case leading up to the second floor. I’m just amazed at the building itself, before I even looked at the art work on display. I was able to see a few pieces from Van Gough, and Monet which are artists that I’ve come to admire more recently. But what really captured my eyes are the marble sculptures from Ancient Greece and Rome, those are breathtaking of how realistic they look. For artists to have created art out of a big piece of stone is mind blowing to me almost impossible. But I guess, things seem impossible until they are done.

One of the displays of Art of Ancient Greece and Rome, where an artist was drawing a sculpture.

Things that have been preserved and created in the past are just simply magnificent. There is so much talent that has happened over the years, and different techniques from different eras. One room had many paintings of the same waterfall that I immediately knew was Niagara Falls, which must have been a popular landscape at a point in time. (I lived in Rochester, NY for 7 years so I had some time to explore Buffalo, and get a tour of Niagara Falls one summer). There are displays from Ancient Egypt, Art of Asia, Art of Europe and so many more. When I look at the paintings and pieces from long ago, I try to picture what life was like back then. I try to picture myself living in that era, of what it would be like to watch Monet paint or to see Michelangelo sculpting. Art now-a-days is so much different than what it used to be, but it’s also the same. Art may not look the same, but I think it has the same concept as it did back then. If you stop a look around, you see that art is everywhere around you.

Different flutes over the years in the Musical Instruments display.

What I didn’t realize, is that you could come here to sketch. An artist was sketching a sculpture, which was absolutely beautiful. Although I am sure that you have to get permission from the museum to be able to do that. But the one display that caught me by surprise was the Musical Instruments. Being able to see how instruments have changed over the years was so cool to see. Especially the display of flutes, mostly because I play the flute. I knew that there were wooden flutes, and it makes sense why wood wouldn’t be a good material to use, because of the moisture that can ruin it over time (not to say that a silver flute wouldn’t get ruined over time, but maybe not as quickly). But I didn’t know that there was a flute made of glass. I would have loved to play the glass flute, to see the differences from my silver flute. The sound, how to play a different material, it would be a fun challenge for me. This goes to show how much things have changed over the years, from the art work, to the instruments, to the whole world.

If you couldn’t tell, this museum has been my favorite so far. So many exciting things to see and learn about in this museum, and good knowledge for trivia too. (Well if I can remember it all) (Museum of Fine Arts Boston)

Central Library in Copley Square

The Downtown Central Library. If you knew me in college, you would know that the library was my second home, seriously. If you couldn’t find me at home or in my room and I wasn’t picking up my phone, chances are you could find me in the library. I love libraries. When I first moved to Rochester I was still in school, and I ended up going to so many different libraries when I was there. RGH and URMC Library, U of R Library (this one was beautiful and by far my favorite), Penefield Public library, Henrietta Public Library, and Brighton Public Library just to name a few. Libraries are free to visit, to walk around, to explore, to read a book, and to study or to do work. At the Central Downtown Library in Boston, I was taken aback by the architecture on the outside and the inside, truly beautiful. As I was walking around, exploring, there happened to be a beautiful Courtyard in the middle of the building. Where people were enjoying their lunches in the sun, connecting with friends, or reading a book. The reason I went to this library was because I wanted to see a free violin concert, and what better place to listen to music in, than in a library? I love music and have always admired the violin (not an easy instrument to learn) and having a little concert in a library made it 10x better. (Central Library Copley Square)

So far I have enjoyed my time here in Boston, but I have so much more to explore. If you have any places or recommendations that I should check out in the Boston area, feel free to let me know, I would love to go to them!

The Courtyard in the middle of the Library

Where have you explored in your area?

Much Love,
CLD

There Is No Need to Rush

“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” -Lao Tzu

The last couple of weeks I’ve been exploring different parts of the surrounding Boston area. Mostly in nature because that’s where I feel most at peace. I ventured out to the ocean one day, and have been walking around the parks in my area. Most days I’ve been walking around a park along the Charles River, to get to know the area better. And obviously being outside more when the sun is out, gotta get that Vitamin D.

The last couple of days it’s been getting warmer. Today, as I am writing this post, it is 60 degrees here (but as I post this, it is 33 degrees and snowed yesterday). And while it’s getting warmer, I’ve noticed a variety of birds have been hanging out, rummaging through the wooded areas, especially Robins. I was curious, so I stopped and watched a group of them throwing leaves around. At first, I thought that they were looking for materials for their nests. But then I realized maybe they’re looking for food? Each Robin was doing the exact same thing, and of course to me, they all looked the same. Even though I do not know what their motives are for throwing these leaves around (maybe someone can tell me why, or teach me something new about birds), it made me happy to sit and watch these Robins doing things for themselves and doing things for their families to survive.

One of the Robins scavenging for something.

I was in the present moment, meditating in my own way, while watching these birds. I felt most at peace at realizing there is no hurry in life. A quote by Lao Tzu came to mind “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” I feel we are the only species that is in a constant rush, constantly scrolling through our screens, always looking for the quickest way to do things. I feel this is not what life is meant to be about, always being in a rush, always trying to get things done quickly. I know when I rush to get things done I will always make mistakes and it starts to make me feel stressed. We don’t need to rush for anything or to be anywhere in life. It is okay to take some time for yourself to rest, just to be in the present moment. We all make it to the place that we need to be, everything will get done and there is no hurry to get anywhere or to do anything.

As I was leaving the scavenging Robins I said out loud, “You birds know that it’s not Spring yet, right?” I am sure the birds that inhabit New England are used to the ‘wicked’ (New England term) weather patterns. I chuckled a bit, as I left them to their leaf flipping. Although, I am glad I have been seeing more and more birds out, because to me it means that Spring is Just Around the Riverbend. (Had to put a Pocahontas reference in here) But of course we can still get snow into the month of May, so I’ll just patiently wait for those beautiful Spring days.

I love the ocean

I have peace, knowing that everything, like in nature, will get done, so there is no need to rush in life. Everything happens in Divine Timing. Enjoy the present moment, because it really is all we have. These Robins are living in the now, not worrying about what comes tomorrow. So, what have you taken the time to stop and appreciate in nature today?

Much Love,
CLD

Prayer Circle on a Sunday

“It’s true when people say there is strength in numbers.”

Today, I joined a live Prayer Circle (this link is to watch it if it calls to you) on Instagram hosted by Muneeza with homegrownhealers and Amber Stone. These three are part of the Medical Medium Community trying to help heal those around the world. Throughout this live, each of them said prayers to help to heal the earth, help heal everyone, and to help restore faith in those who have lost it. There was so much that was spoken of, so much that resonated with me and others that were listening to it. At points I was crying, crying for those who are suffering, crying for my own struggles, and crying because this group of people, no matter how small, are making an impact in helping the world. I am grateful to be apart of a community that is helping the world in any way we can.

It’s true when people say there is strength in numbers. There may have only been around 300 people on that Live, but we came together collectively to help heal and say prayers for ourselves and the world. There are people in the world that are here to help to heal one another. One of my goals for me this year is to leave a place or person better than when I entered. That’s what I’ve been striving to do ever since I started my healing journey and now I make this apart of my daily life. This world needs more love, kindness and peace spread to everyone. Love is what drives out hate. Love is what makes the darkness in this world disappear. We all need love, just like the Beatles song “All You Need Is Love”, all any of us needs is love.

So today I ask you to show some love and kindness in this world, whether it be to do something nice for someone, meditate on love and peace for the world, pray out loud to help others, do something kind to the earth we live on, donate to a charity or whatever it is that you feel brings love, kindness and peace back to the people and the planet. Even if it is something little, you never know who or what you could be impacting. When you start to heal yourself, you start to heal the world and others around you.

Below is a TikTok video I did of a meditation that I do to help spread more love to the world. I got the meditation out of the book Becoming Supernatural by Joe Dispenza. This is a great book to read to help you realize how powerful your mind truly is.

As always,

Much Love,
CLD